crazy people

today was a good day for me
i discovered there are people possitively more deranged than i am.

why is that a good day you may ask?

well
after being called a vile creature by the most deranged of all
the one you call a friend you know how that goes dont you
no...
ok
go get a look at the next blog
it suits you better
just a sugestion though

nanowrimo/failure

i failed
of course i did
i barely have time to breath
why the hell did i think i could write a novel in a month
november of all months
the 30 day period before the holiday spirit kicks in
its no use really
but im going to try again next year
why post it on my blog?
lest i forget
in all honesty
i like sharing my wacky mind with others
morbid thoughts come easilly to me
i just finished reading a book
its called: "I, Lucifer."
by Glenn Duncan

i have mentioned this before
i entirely love the idea of angels
specially the fallen angel idea
im also very much in love with this manga called angel sanctuary
ok (slight drawback)
the guy (main character) is in love with his sister...
but thats irrelevant
its about angels
and fallen angels
and demons
and death ^^
nothing beats that
although im still looking for the original story of the fallen
you know the thing about

and the great dragon was cast out
he was cast out into the earth
and his angels were cast out with him

ah well
i supose its in some part of the bible
but i have no idea as to where to look
what part
do you have any idea how many of them there are?

thing is
i wouldnt know
im so much of an atheist i really dont
so much for taking an interest
if i had time..
but thats the problem with New Time
it rushes past you like a yuppie with half a days work ahead of him
(or her of course no need to generalise)

ever wondered what would happen when you put a bloody sword in the hands of a man?
now think of what would happen if you put it in the hands of a female
will that change the situation?
or will it be the same
will the metal hit the ground
will there be running feet
will there?

what happens when all boundaries and inner reservations go away
when we go back to instinct
only this time its laced with the ultimate edge of New Time.
what will happen
what will go through that persons head?
when you send a randomly picked person a bloody sword
(you know the works: grap the phone book close your eyes and pinpoint the lucky person, give it a giftwrap a box and of it goes. Gotta love the mail!)
with a card saying:

I'm game.
Kill me.

I must be stupid or just a little insane.

why you might ask
well
thats none of your business
thing is
im talking to someone i wouldn't possibly know
well except those of you i do know
which are just a very select people
and those i do know i just push away
i dont need your help
i dont need any help
humans were designed to be alone
thats the whole point
people blabering about the "one"
the person they've been waiting for
their soulmate
their one
their only
their true love
personally i think its pathetic
but then again i think a lot of things are pathetic
really dont mind me or anything i say
the most important thing is for you to decide
you decide what is right or wrong
at least within your perfect little world or ego
simple
effective
and antisocial like the outside world calls these people
but arnt they perfectly happy the way they are?
they have everything they can possibly want
the life
the choice
and no moral bagadge to carry around
because they dont have to concider anyone else
all there is is them
if al there is is you
when outside of you there is nothing else
then concider this

are you alone?
are you happy?
do you feel fulfilled?
or are you missing something..
something nagging at the back of you mind
wouldn't you like to feel superior over something?